Saturday, January 10, 2009

love me... hate me

Life is too short.... not to make the best and the most of everything that comes your way everyday. Life is too short that you need to make your life meaningful. Although, life sometimes is so cruel, you can't understand why things happening the way that you don't want. Sometimes, life is so amazing , that you want to embrace it so it won't vanish.
Many people says that you must love your life and make the best of it so I learned to love myself and make my life goes on, be optimistic and expect life will be interesting as time goes by. Men would hate me because I'm the type of woman who is really perfectionist with regards to men. Before, I want those men who are tall, dark , handsome and rich. But I realize that it's really hard to look for a man like this. I decided to change it.... it should be physically attractive and with a good personality. But again, i realize I'll be 60 yrs old then and again, i don't think that I'll have the chance to meet this guy. Kinda like looking for Mr. Perfect. Is there really Mr. Perfect? Nah.....I ask myself do i really need a man in my life? I realize that finding Mr. Perfect makes my life complicated, instead of hoping for the day that soon I'll finally meet him ,things get worst...I started to hate guys, ask friends why are men like this?, Why do women dislikes men.... they said...men don't show affection to their partner. can't sense their feelings..if it's true or just simply for fun. Women also says that they are annoying.... Now imagine you are on a first date and he starts talking about the amount of money that he has made in the stock markets or the new Ferrari that he has bought. I am sure more often than not a woman would not like to hear about these things on the first date. While do talk about what they do for a living on first dates, it is usually considered annoying and ruse for someone to brag about their earnings. Also talking to them makes me realize what a woman really wants. Woman would not like a person who would show insensitivity towards her feelings. This is a mistake that many men make and women do not like this attitude from them. There are many other factors that women generally do not like in men such as arrogance, lies, submissive behavior, etc. This is one of the traits that women dislike in a man. It is a mistake that many men make by making a woman feel that he is ready to fall at her feet. Contrary to a man thinking that a woman would appreciate it, women get annoyed with men who are too submissive and ready to do anything for her. This does not mean that a woman does not want a sensitive man who is open about his feelings, but it does mean that a woman still wants a man to be his own person, think for himself and claim what he wants from a relationship.
A woman always likes a man who has a big heart and ready to share and care. A self-centered man is rarely loved by women and more often than not will crave for female company. Ahhh... so many reason that makes think, do i really need a man in my life?
Would things may change? I don't know i hope someday, I'll meet someone that would change my point of view about men. But things really change when i met this guy. At first, i really hate him why? Because all the bad traits that i really hates he has it. He smokes a lot, drink until he die, flirt w/ every women he meet. So hate him, that i want to curse him. But things change when I had the chance to talk to him. I realized that he's different. He's so thoughtful and caring . I understand now why is he like that. Deep inside of him is a man who is thirsty of love. If You would love him.... you'll see the true him , if talk to him he's simple and intelligent. So nice to talk with. He's view in life is different from mine and he will let you change your view in life.
I really admire this guy. He makes me love my life more and change my perception in life. Good thing I met this guy and most of all... it's a good thing he is now my friend.